I find serious joy in messing with your head. I’m the reason so many guys fuck girls over. They fall for me and I fuck them over. But even after knowing this all I still get a smile on my face when they fall for my every little move.

I need to get myself together. This is unacceptable. I don’t break down.

I wish I could go back 4 years and start over. I fucking hate him. He’s ruined my life. 

I hate being here because it reminds me of why I left. I hate all of you. You all treated me like shit and I cannot wait until the day where karma bites you in the ass. 

I finished my first year of college and now I’m home for the summer. FML

Get me the fuck home. I’m so over this shit.

Growing up sometimes really sucks.

I have so much passion.

I wish I had someone to share it with. 

I just don’t understand where my confidence within my school work went. That was the one thing I could always count on. My grades. And now they are falling apart, I get extremely anxiety before every test or presentation. I don’t know whats wrong with me. 

My heart seriously stopped when I realized I forgot your number today. I honestly never thought it would escape my mind. We were 14 when we met. And since then we were constantly falling. I have never felt the way I did with you. Those three years were the best years of my life. I have yet to fall as hard even though I am trying my hardest to replace you. It doesnt work. I moved away and you still are on my mind. And today when I went to send you a text I couldn’t remember your number. I used to type it in every day for years. And today.. it was as if I never called you. In some ways this seems stupid. But honestly I am sad. We’ve been over for a long time. But I think it really is starting to hit me that we really are done. For good. We both have such separate lifes. Its hard for me to wrap my head around that when for so long it seemed as if our lives were one. After everything we have been through I can’t even remember your number. And that makes me very uneasy.